Ending is the new Beginning.

"Everything that starts will come to an end"
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When I was in primary school, I wait for UPSR. Aced it, well done.
Growing up in secondary school, time became slower. As if I'm not moving forward until I got all A's in PMR. I went out from the dark hole to a boarding school in Selangor. School's finished and I aced it again with more A's in hand. Then, I'm done with school. Not to forget the days I'm counting for MCE to be over and be no longer an underage.
That was the end of the school years which indicates the college years will begin.

Not long after that, I was enrolled in a local foundation center. Study was a problem to me after months of not studying. Though it is not the first time of being away from parents, that was the first time of going into the real world as an adult. A new adult. Or I call it a teeny adult. Moving forward day by day, conflicts after conflicts and then I'm done with foundation studies. It ends just like that. Even the memories are quite blurry except the memory of the hecticness.

By the age of 20, I started as a degree student in the east coast region of the country. These four years are the years I'm shaping myself into who I wanted to be. By influencing the surrounding people and influenced by the others, I grew up to be me. Flexible yet still rooting to the same base.

So frankly, when something ended, another epilog of life journey starts. I wonder to how many new journeys I would be in until the real end catches me. It may be sounded so hopeless but who are we to question the destiny. Allah won't let you be lifeless unless you lead yourself into it.  

whoever you are before, whoever you have become, the right TENSE to live now is the PRESENT and no matter what brings you down, it is the rock bottom that bounces you back, alive and stronger.
Therefore if you think it is the end of something, remember that something new will be showing up next. Not every end is a bad one, sometimes it smells bad but the aftertaste is heavenly good.

DON'T LOSE HOPE!

Till then,
be better.

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