Relentless

I appreciate how Allah puts me in this hurdles where I pricked my own self with needles of disappointment, I hung the egos in trees of anger, I cried a rainfall in the nights that I couldn’t sleep thinking about how rude I was, I pledged to myself not to be like how I used to be but I broke my own rules. He tests me with the unsettling feeling over and over due to the failure of change.

It wasn’t easy. 

As I look back, I’ve been walking away quite further from the old me. 
Do I deserve a recognition? No. 
Do I need appreciation? No. 
Do I have to let go of everything? Depends. 
Do I have to be grateful? Absolutely. 

This life is the place to grow into a better person every day. 

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