3rd Tri

Hi sayang . 
I know it is a bit overwhelming inside there knowing that the space is getting smaller and you yourself are getting heavier and of course, bigger. 
Entering this phase of gestation makes me deeply and easily being touched. Even a single glare, even a slight silence. 

My shoulder bears a lot of feelings and burden lately, my eyes are easily filled with tears tho sometimes the event is not that much. But with you inside me, I’m truly sorry if you can sense me putting myself in a depressing mode quite frequent at the moment. 

I pray that Allah will always sustain you. Keep kicking me so that I know you’re there, with me. I will always make myself strong so that I can raise you to be strong. 

It is Ramadhan; the fasting month now. I’m happy when I can feel you move so much that my belly make waves tho you too are as hungry as I am. I’m so lembik, aren’t I? 

With tiredness and sometimes pain, I may say that it is a bit difficult for me to find happiness when I’m unhappy. But I try to ignore the negativity and keep my chin up cause I know the stress is not good for you. 

Bear with me a little more my sweet pea, may Allah makes me a supermama. May you grow up to be our soleh first born. InsyaAllah~ 


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