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Assalam and hi ! :))

I have times when I have tons of stories to tell but then I make last minute decision; not to tell anybody.
That time I have a complete blog post, I saved it as a draft; unpublished. 
Sometimes I wrote things fast, to tell, then I pressed backspace too long; it is deleted. 

yeah, things don't come the way we want it to be. 
And we don't usually do what we think we gonna do. We make mistakes, we change mind again and again and mostly what we do is we told ourselves not to think about something yet that thing will always running in our head.

They said we didn't move on, I said yes though we can pretend it as a no. 

Life's hard yes it is. For you who haven't experience any depression before, let me tell you this:

1. A depressed person will smile even at smallest things. because they're trying to fight with sad emotions. They know they should laugh at least once a day for survival. That's why.
2. You may see them as happy as they are physically, but the truth is only the wet pillow can tell it all. 
3. They cried a lot when they are alone. Never leave them alone, tears surely gonna roll down their cheeks. They always need somebody inert to talk to. Somebody who's not judgmental. Somebody who can hear them, understand 'em and console 'em till they're normal.

I've experience depression. and it does not consist only sadness. There are much more incomplete, unfinished feelings and somewhat deteriorating. 


dah lah. I'll be okay. I'm getting my appetite back, I laughed more now and I have reasons to go on rather than to cry for what people did to me. Kemon lah, the best way nak balas pengkhianatan manusia adalah dengan cara ignore. They lost our attention. haha 

ATTENTION WAIVED. bye. xoxo