To Whom It May Concern..


Assalamualaikum, hai :)

 I believed that some people might have been touched or even traumatized by my words especially to those who involved in my life, personally. I am very straight forward person, and I usually express what I think or feel. But most of the time I can say that I hold my words back, just letting them to pass by. Unfortunately, I do admit that somehow there are times when I accidentally, unintentionally say things harshly or I made people annoyed or mad because of my expressions. 

 Couple of days ago I posted a status on facebook. Some people might take it easy but I know I should also consider some people who might be taken back by my words based on their conditions. They may be in a conflict among themselves or hungry or something that causes them to take my words as deep as the Pacific Ocean. hmm.. 
I'm sorry. ;(

 I may have chosen the wrong phrases or what not but believe me I didn't mean to. Niat aku lain, tapi yang tersebut lain pulak. Maka yang difahami juga lain. Jadi, to be fair, biar aku minta maaf. My bad. Sarcasm aku tertinggi masa tu. :/

 I noticed that there is a person who quoted me in his comment, I was a bit shocked. Literally. So I think that people out there who read my writing might be influenced by what I'm saying in those texts. It feels good somehow to influence people, but just to let you know that I will be much happier if I gave you a positive influence, maybe a motivation or somewhat inspiration. I get nothing but a burden of regret if my words struck your heart like a blunt sword. It'll hurt, I know. I don't like the same things too hence I am completely understood of how you feel or think.

 However, I think I need to put disclaimers. 

  • I can be harmful to a person who thinks I'm a small, tiny-sized girl who doesn't have the criteria of a normal woman, who can't do things on my own and to those who belittle me or underestimate me.   
  • Sometimes I behave like a mirror; you good to me so I'm angel for you. You disrespect me, then I'm a grenade or an ineradicable infection to you. This behavior is reversible once you get to handle me nicely. Easy, kan? 

Lastly, if you want me to be good, please be good to me. You ain't lose anything if you're accepting and understand people well. Me too, will be practicing the same thing. insyaAllah. *senyum* 
No expectation, no disappointment. Do good and good will come to you. 

 Toodles! :)   

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