♥ Aimi Noor ♥

You couldn’t tell yourself whether you’re happy or scared. Probably both at the same time. The only strength to hold on is prayers to Allah to make this journey at ease and bearable.  With husband not around, it is hard to adapt with the new body as you don’t have anybody to talk to about the queasiness, nausea and ache. But he is always there to support whenever you’re in need although virtually. ❤️  It feels better to voice out the feelings/sickness as if it let the burdens off at the moment tho the only relief is the passing time.  But this is our prayers and hopes that comes in reality to which we should never complain of.  At the moment it is figured out, I am completely speechless. This is the first time I dont have any idea about it. It crosses my mind but I can’t figure it out. This is the miracle Allah wants me to feel inside me. In order to thank him, to be grateful of mothers and to be humble with His gift.  Ya Allah.  L...

One man was asked by his colleagues about his feelings after being newly married. He said “I felt the same. Before and after marriage. Maybe because we’re in a LDR”  I smiled.  “I think it’s a different situation for a woman. Women feel different regarding before and after being married and it doesn’t matter if LDR or not. But LDR really can make things bitter”  A female senior colleague whom I respect, nodded. “Yes. It is definitely different. It wouldn’t be the same”  What a guy feels and what a girl feels after marriage. That is why it is famously said that guys are from Mars and women are from Venus. We think differently, act differently and of course feels differently.  Perbezaan itu bukanlah suatu benda yang buruk. Tetapi perbezaan itu perlu dihayati agar kita lebih memahami.  Bahawa apabila nikah itu menyatukan, ia bukan fusion tetapi ia cuma mixture. Bergaul tetapi tidak bercantum sehingga menjadi suatu yang sama. Maksud lainnya, perbezaan itu perlu...

Aku terasa sedikit berbeza dari hari lainnya.  Nafasku sendu ditemani hujan tengahari. Angin dingin sekejap sekejap menyapa pipi. Bantal tersorong untuk melewati waktu yang kian sepi.  Sudah 51 hari bergelar seorang isteri.  Hikmah belum bersambut, waktu cepat terasa seperti dikejar-kejar. Terimbau masa dahulu aku seiring dengan doaku.  Temukan aku dengan jodohku. Lancarkan pertemuanku sehingga pernikahan.  Lindungi suami ku, keluargaku dan diriku.  Mudahkan urusan kami untuk menyatu, menghalalkan dua menjadi satu.  Lantas hari ini sudah 51 hari.  Doa dimakbul.  Jodoh bertemu, nikah pun mudah.   Konflik dan tribulasi dipermudah, ada saja cara mengatasi masalah. Alhamdulillah.  Lancar semuanya.  Masih mentah untuk aku simpulkan.  Masih terlalu muda untuk aku katakan.  Pernikahan bukan semuanya manis, tetapi pahitnya nikah tidak sampai memudaratkan, tidaklah sampai tak boleh ditelan.  Hadirnya nikmat berselang pert...

Aku tulis dekat sini untuk ingatan aku nanti.  Hari Khamis petang, aku balik kerja terus ke rumah mertua. Baju untuk Jumaat dah packed, jadi tak perlu singgah rumah sewa. Direct journey.  Sampai rumah, bahagia jiwa bila nampak dia. (I didn’t have the time to write about how we got married because I didn’t have the  time - later when I’m up to it again I’ll write it up)  Badan letih, tapi jiwa terasa lengkap. Day is over, time to prepare for the last working day of the week.   It is our routine to breakfast before departing. I had a nice roti canai and hot cup of milo. My husband would be preparing for work after he sent me off the main road. His clinic is nearer to the house, lucky him.  I kissed his hand, asking blessings. He kissed my forehead and cheeks, making cheesy sounds. I drove to work full heartedly.  It was a dreamy, foggy morning I may say. I turned on the fog lamp and silver lights. Driving steadily on the road with no radio on. I was abou...

Hi. I’m on my night shift now and I planned on writing about some life updates. Currently I had finished my PRP journey (houseman for pharmacist). Called as FRP : fully registered pharmacist.  Many of you might wonder what I do after finishing that horrendous time of my life quarrelling with inner peace and miserable mind.  Let me tell you this. PRP is the time when you need to learn so quick so fast and at the same time full filling the logbook requirements. Sometimes you got so fucked up and you flipped everything on the table.  “Persetankan logbook”.  “Lantak sana”  “IDGAS anymore dude”  Yeah. It feels like that, unutterable. Nobody knows but a prp.  But on top of that, we do learn quite a lot. :)  When everything’s over, we’re dwelling in a more emotionally stable conditions, a better time to recap the basics.  Best!  So at night, I find some time to read back the guidelines, the bluebook on common drug doses and frequency, on the MO...

Almost berhari-hari aku menghitung kira belanja sesuatu event. Itu berapa ini berapa sampai runsing satu kepala.  Berkira-kira untuk mencukupkan atau sengaja untuk diadakan atas alasan “orang lain buat”, “tapi kebiasaannya kan ya gitu”.  Lumrah. Ppl putting definitions to things that evolve surround them. I used to hate it, until I do what ppl called as kerja kahwin, I HATE IT EVEN MORE! -__-  Putting definitions to things like “eh tak kahwin lah takde pelamin”, “baju pengantin kena extra, blink2”, itu kena ada ini kena ada. You put a definitive measure on something that makes it unnecessarily necessary. Got what i mean?  Sampailah satu hari aku berkata “ah takpayah bagi doorgift. Makan dah percuma, nak bagi hadiah lagi.” Wah. Kedekut ya ampun.  Then adik aku kata “kak, alahh tengok apa fate of doorgift after majlis. Buang. But this time, you give what you wanted to give, on whatever value it has. In the act of giving, the intentions are deemed. It doesn’t matte...